Hello....

So I have tried this whole blog thing before and even though I love spending time on my computer updating my blogs kind of faded away and then I forgot the password. So when all else fails begin anew. So that is what I am doing. I am a new person now anyhow. Just wanted to take a minute to say hello. This blog is going to be used as sort of a personal journal so those of you who read, do so at your own will.

Today, woke up early (5am) to go to work after a night laying awake in my bed being sick and stressing. Not able to call in because I don't want to be written up for calling in. So pepto-bismol/sprite cocktail heres to you. Not working yet but I am going to give it some time.

And just my thoughts for the day. Trying not to focus too much on school. This weekend was my reality check. Had to come to terms with the fact that I failed this semesters clinicals (unfairly I have to add) but what is done is done and now I get to take a year off. I don't even know what to do with myself. I haven't ever been out of school for this long. EVER. Graduated highschool in 2003 and been in college ever since. Kind of sad isn't it? To have gone to school this long with nothing to show for it? Life's unfair, make some lemonade. :-) But I had to email my boss today and I think thats what brought me out of my denial. Told some people at work because when you only have a few weeks left until your done its going to be brought up. But now I have to keep telling people that I won't be done until next year. UGH! Sucks. I just have to have faith in the fact that God has a plan for everything. I read today that to give it over to him you have to fully own it first. Well I think that this weekend was me finally owning it and now its time to offer it up and over and have faith that He knows what to do with it. Can't even begin to express how much the serenity prayer has been said this weekendl. Over and over again. Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Today the thing I can change is my attitude, can't change is the fact that I failed and hopefully that was the wisdom I was given.

Thanks for letting me rant. Prayers and God Bless to all.

Buenas noches.