So I've been thinking of a name that I can give to my little one in heaven and I think that I've decided on Summer. Summer Angel. I don't know whether baby was a boy or a girl and so I can't give it a name that would say what sex baby would have been. Due date would have been January 27th 2011 but I was pregnant in the summer. It will forever be a special day in my heart but the summer of 2010 is when I got to know the baby growing in my belly. We are celebrating this Saturday a very important event for my father and I've decided since we will all be together as a family that it would be a good day to do a memorial. Just for me, so that in my heart I have some kind of closure. I am working on something that I can put there at Mary's feet to ask her to watch over my child. It doesn't get easier to think about but it gets easier to talk about. I am able to say what happened without balling my eyes out which is a step forward i suppose. I havent written in my journal for a few days. I need to print of these posts to add them. I've been emailing a friend who has been through the loss of a child and even though its only through the web I feel better for getting it out of my chest. And you, my blog, are helping me a lot too. Thanks..
Love you Summer,
My forever child.
xoxox - mommy
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