To my baby

When my baby died, I felt a rip in my soul. Although months have passed, the pain is still very real. I have to trust that God is mending my spirit- first with basting threads then with a beautiful stitch. But I wish he would sew me up quickly so the pain will stop. I know that the greif process is an important part of healing and that it must not be rushed. I do want to heal, but I don't want to do the work of grief. I just want it to be over.

Help me understand, Lord, that if I hurry you, it will be as if an unskilled apprentice sewed up my wound with eneven stitches that would not hold. If I allow you time to heal me, you will sew a fine seam and weave it's pattern into the tapestry of my life, making it more beautiful than it was.