Hormones!!!!

So some of my sisters recently started taking melatonin to help them sleep. They said it works really well and that they werent tired in the morning so i decided to get some and try it. Well today as I was online looking up information on it I ran across and article about it that said that it also regulated the release of female reproductive hormones. WTF can I ever get a break? Ive had insomnia my whole life. I was just talking to my mom on the phone remembering a time back in minnesota that I used to sing late at night when i was in bed to try to sleep and she told me to shhhh.. i was so little then. and its only worsened in adulthood because i actually have a job where i have to be up early which means i have to be in bed alseep early. yea right. anyways i cant believe that i have so many expectations from doctors. i mean really. i am always disappointed when i put things together when i have been going to the doctor for all of them my whole freaking life! some times i think that we would all be better off with cmptr doctors. that way they can cross reference all our symtpoms tell us what we could have and do an instant test.GRRR so frustrated! anyways im glad that i saw it at least. now i can go to the doctor and let him know that i think i have a pineal gland problem because not only is it not releasing my stimulating girlie hormones, its not releasing melatonin. god knows what else i am missing. its like i am a recipe for a really awesome girl and i dont have all the ingredients. weird...... anyways had a great dinner date with my sister and my aunt. had a few beers and peanuts. then got home to realize i had hives under my boobs where i dropped a nut :-( sad first off that my tits are big enough that i can get food lost down there and second that i have a freaking peanut rash on my girls!!!!! WTF :-( sad face. anyways, off tomorrow gonna take danielle to the city museum. cant believe that she is leaving in just a few days. john had already started to not talk as much who knows when i will get to talk to danielle. she cant text as much. :-*( booooo...


goodnight.,